Meike Schrut

Broken dreams (9)

Scene                                            WHERE - EXACTLY WHERE - TIME OF DAY

32                                                 INSIDE - SITTING ROOM of RF - MEET

                                                                                                MARIE
                                                                     (very quietly)
                                   What you expect, there will not be of Pieter and me: to do no charter everything 
                                     what you did before. Indeed, you may look younger, but the staying power, the 
                                     rest and patience to call only something what one knows of RF?

                                     She laid to him a box with tablets on the empty plate, he shook the head.

                                                                                                 RF
                                                                     (negative)
                                   Why I should start with it.

                                    Madleine looked at the medicine, these were merely reassurance tablets, (how 
                                    strongly, like weakly, was not recognizable on the first moment) there everybody 
                                    still perceived here, as excited, angry and nervously the actor still was. She nodded.

                                                                                                 MADLEINE
                                   It is fine only one matter of time, until you have got used to your body. To show 
                                    fear which would be embarrassing for you for what.... Take please, also to me for 
                                    the sake of.

                                    RF could not beat off of the darlings this. Even if him the subject amused fear at 
                                    short notice.

                                    Pieter looked around meanwhile round the flat, then requested for RF a good photo 
                                    what showed him how he has looked before and it was enough Christopher.

                                                                                                 PIETER
                                   You mean, you do it in such a way that it will deceive everybody except us?

                                    Christopher nodded.

                                                                                                 CHRISTOPHER
                                                                     (carelessly)
                                   However, can take up thus 1-3 hours, in this RF can also try out immediately his 
                                    perseverance.

                                                                                                 NARRATOR
                                   This was taken up as an everyday program point: Mask after the breakfast, then a  
                                    little shorter or longer walk, the RF sometimes with Madleine, sometimes with 
                                    Marie or Christopher and also with Pieter alone should undertake. During the day 
                                    appeared that RF became more patient very well and quieter, according to his real 
                                    age. In the evening he refused over and over again to take the tablets, because he 
                                    would prefer a normal sleep, to Madleine it omitted sighing to talk into taking him 
                                    the things what led, however, to follower:

                                    RF struggled afterwards during the day over hammering headaches, feeling of  
                                    sickness, sometimes also to light fever. What knew neither he nor Madleine: the 
                                    tablets were no 0-8-15 preparations, but the strongest what was to be had at the 
                                    market and he would have had to take them strictly according to regulation,
                                    because he confirmed also to the doctors over and over again, were surprised, why 
                                    he became more and more monosyllabic. When it was, however, even 18 o'clock 
                                    and he feigned tiredness, fizzed Madleine.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (is disappointing)
                                   You demonstrate what, why to me? Only because you cannot wait for the time for  
                                    new shooting?

33                                                 INSIDE - BEDROOM of RF - EVENING  

                                    RF did not hear on them, lay down, she followed him anxiously.

                                                                                                 RF
                                                                     (unnerves)
                                   Do you not deal still what?

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (roughly)
                                   As you see, I must be around you like the mother around her small tearful child.

                                    She touched softly his upper arms, his remaining body, felt how he easily trembled, 
                                    as if he froze, sweat unpleasantly stuck to him on the skin, ran to him in streams 
                                    down.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (disturbs)
                                   Thus this goes by no means if you suffer a relapse, you move to pity to all the ears 
                                    fully and will give us the guilt because we have not always offered the medicine to 
                                    you again.
                                    She washed to him softly the face, you struck that his eyes gleamed ill...

                                    When he made way only to her look, it took to themselves the clinical thermometer  
                                    and before he could prevent it, she had already measured: 39.6?

                                    Because she did not manage with it, she asked Pieter to see after her love which 
                                    looked the tablet box. There was precisely no number which should be absent, 
                                    however....

                                                                                                 Pieter `s voice off-screen
                                   He has made us to all what before and do you cause the biggest grief where this 
                                    should still lead there? No notion.

                                    So much it also opposed against the doctor, he started to supply the man again as 
                                    Madleine knew it, she could hardly endure the sight and ran in the bath to weep 
                                    herself there from.


                                                                                                 RF `s voice off-screen
                                   Yes she is right, but seems to me, the restlessness, nervousness, impatience  
                                    sometimes belong to me, still and quite of course, there no tablets will also help.

                                                                                                 RF
                                                                     (how to itself)
                                   There must be another way and there is him.

                                                                                                 NARRATOR
                                   And on the next days they practiced warily as he could file his a little advantageous 
                                    qualities without medicine at least partially: he lay down together with Madleine in 
                                    the middle during the day on the wide bed, not only to entice them. She asked him 
                                    to relax completely, to find to herself. When everything looked after renewed 
                                    hypnosis, he defended himself, tried to make clear to her, why he did not want just 
                                    this: yes, because of fear, before that what he had to experience with the first trip in 
                                    his subconsciousness.

                                                                                                 RF
                                                                     (stagnant)
                                   I is to be fallen certainly no coward, but somewhere in without knowing what 
                                    expects me there: no, on it I rather renounce.

                                    That what he did not dare to say her because he accepted it would sound 
                                    ridiculously, pursued him at one of the following nights.

 34                                                INSIDE - RF `s inner life - NIGHT
                                                                                                 Dream sequence

                                                                                                 Soul of his mother
                                                                     (annoyingly)
                                   Have I not asked you never again to come here?

                                                                                                 RF
                                                                     (provoking)
                                   What have you done against longing?

                                                                                                 Soul of the mother
                                                                     (repulsing)
                                   It is not about it at all, see there, she will reach you if you here do not disappear.

                                    And the soul of that young woman which had committed suicide itself floated on 
                                    him to, but in which state: not like an angel with white wings and maybe even black 
                                    hair: with empty eyes, unkempt hair, crazy look and also no elegant fairy body: here 
                                    this was cleft, cut like by countless knives.

                                                                                                 Desperate soul
                                   No, this I have not added to myself, this was done to me here and in the interworld 
                                    because I am a selfmurderer who should exist quite forever with this flaw.

     35                                            INSIDE - BEDROOM of RF - NIGHT
                                    Madleine was woken up at that night by the gruesome scream of her companion 
                                    who clutched against all what he had done up to now in her and asked them 
                                    shaking,  finally, she may switch on the light.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (drowsy)
                                   Did not know at all, that you...

                                    When the matt light of the small lamp was in, it stared in his face wet with tears.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (in bewilderment)
                                   What has happened around everything in the world?!

                                    She troubled not to see herself, him as a mental wreck what he almost was, 
                                    however.
                                    He had eaten during the past days less and less, had found no sufficient rest during 
                                    the day any more and also had badly slept.

                                                                                                 RF
                                                                     (desperately)
                                   The soul of that selfmurderer pursues me for at least one week.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (furiously)
                                   "Am "inspired that you me this inform now already.

                                    She laid the arms around him and considered how it should turn away the evil of 
                                    him,  finally, an idea occurred to her, but... Maybe the possibility....?

36                                                 INSIDE - HALL of RF `s FLAT - MEET

                                    Already in the next morning Madleine called her friend Mariann, one of the 
                                    clairvoyants whom she trusted.

                                                                                                 MADLEINE
                                                                     (happily)
                                   What do you hold from a renewed meeting, my love? Will bring RF, it is the real  
                                    reason for my visit. What do you say? No, I can be hypnotised myself again to 
                                    have a rendezvous with the souls of deads.

                                                                                                 NARRATOR
                                   So cheerfully it itself listened, it was so phoney also. She knew RF very well in her 
                                    nearness and did not feel like enduring further his grievous look, in any case, not 
                                    that what she had seen in the very early morning already in his face. RF reached 
                                    with  it only one with her: Activity, because the shooting could have begun long time 
                                    ago if RF had fully been there.

                                    And few hours after this phone call Madleine, RF and Christopher arrived with 
                                    Mariann. This time Christopher - 2 metres of man with the muscles which sprinkled 
                                    almost the suit - should act only as a driver...

   37                                              INSIDE - FLAT OF THE CLAIRVOYANT MARIANN - MEET

                                                                                                 NARRATOR
                                   The aromatic smell of all kinds of smoked work from other rooms, quiet talks of 
                                    the women who sat at other tables round mysterious boards, smoke veils in 
                                    different colours, magic amulets, even the infallible sign of the technology lovers: for 
                                    contacts by tape recorder a lot of device stood unnoticed in corners .
                                    The whole flat had here and there the charm of a lumber room what made RF also 
                                    not more jocularly... Under protest he had decided to sit down where quietly on an 
                                    armchair and exactly to look from distance what was to be seen. He was firmly  
                                    persuaded of the fact that these modern witches also knew how to use modern 
                                    computer engineering.

                                    Madleine looked round lively, ran up joyfully to three friends, briefly whispered with 
                                    one, she embraced very warmly and sat down on a very soft couch. Quick she 
                                    looked with the eyes RF, nodded to him cheering up, whispered a little bit one 
                                    friend.

                                                                                                 MADLEINE
                                                                     (swearing)
                                   Promise to me absolutely one: while I try help with Susanns, you have more than 
                                    one eye and more than one ear on my friend RF. Now though he makes a very 
                                    calm impression, but one cannot know with him currently.

                                                                                                 Bea
                                                                     (reassuringly)
                                   We have already got to know by contact with helpful souls from his sudden change  
                                    to prepare needlessly, to us before.

                                    Now it was short in Madleine to be surprised. Nothing had penetrated from RF `s 
                                    flat outwardly what had this to mean now?

                                    Susann approached her friendly and pressed to her a photo in the hand. Madleine 
                                    looked briefly scuffle and solidified: she recognised RF `s mother. Susann nodded 
                                    and moved them into hypnosis.

                                    Madleine can be tuned and because it got in general very fast contact to too many 
                                    souls, she felt, like the soul of that artist late some years ago, woman and mother 
                                    hesitantly to her came.

    38                                                 INSIDE - Madleine `see contact with a soul - MEET
                                                                                                 NARRATOR
                                   Now of course one can speculate as voices of dead people sound, Madleine 
                                    speaks  alternately with her own voice and cannot steer that what she gives then 
                                    with  the other voice of herself and it is this what persuades RF."

                                                                                                 Soul of RF `s mother
                                                                     (distrustfully)
                                   Nevertheless, I already saw you going past on occasion here, do you search  
                                    somebody for certain, the parents maybe?

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (examining)
                                   Was never allowed to appeal to you, honoured soul, would you allow to me to  
                                    direct different requests to you?

                                                                                                 Soul
                                                                     (smiling)
                                   Why so formally? Has got how meretriciously you and your friends have asked 
                                    with us to friendly souls to come in answers for which there were no real questions. 
                                    Yes, you may ask me, because you are so nice.

                                    In a space of the extensive flat penetrated a gentle rushing from one of the 
                                    apparatuses, this let the modern magicians prick up the ears.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (courageously)
                                   You will know long time ago, why your son looks in such a way as he does this just 
                                    currently. Do I go is absent in the acceptance that this is a present of the friendly 
                                    souls?

                                                                                                 Soul
                                                                     (hesitantly)
                                   Because it was important enough to me, yes, I have prepared this present for him, 
                                    even if I knew, that I him with it, unfortunately, at the same time to myself reminded.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (repulsing)
                                   About all respected soul: your son loves you still madly, there one cannot say, 
                                    unfortunately.

                                                                                                 Soul
                                                                     (more clearly)
                                   I did not want to say goodbye to him in such a way as I did it at that time, 19.. . 
                                    Because also the information of the technical devices comes with us: yes, I am sorry 
                                    that I had to go earlier when I wanted, actually, you wrote yourself: if this admiration-                                    worthy lady had had even more time, certainly the work of her son would have 
                                    steered in another direction, I do not believe this. However, wines not, also does 
                                    not try to hold back your tears because of my child. What you feel, touches me 
                                    strongly how I can help?

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (happily)
                                   The sad dark soul in the other world - interworld or whatever for areas it still gives 
                                    with You - you know indeed the figure of the unblessed selfmurderer who prepares 
                                    the life to the hell currently for your son? If you could calm them personally, now 
                                    this would ease a lot.

                                                                                                 Soul
                                                                     (thoughtfully)
                                   I stay on occasion in her nearness when to her might be dear, because I had to wait 
                                    for the urgent request of a person to help her, yes, I will fast change her dark sense, 
                                    promised with my companions. And I wish that we chat two both sometime again a 
                                    time with each other, my son... He does not take the meeting with me yet and 
                                    defends himself against all this what puts out your appeal.

                                                                                                 Madleine
                                                                     (cheerfully)
                                   I feel linked just to the higher beings exceptionally and would be thanked, yes, I will 
                                    soon get in touch again with you in one or other kind, high woman.

                                    The soul of the woman stopped short, did not know how she should interpret the 
                                    slip of the tongue. Madleine wished nothing more ardently, as that her friend could 
                                    do, finally, this what he wanted to do again: work. And Madleine had forgotten 
                                    made  happy that it concerned only the soul of a person and apologised hesitantly.

                                                                                                 Soul
                                                                     (seized)
                                   No, you have given a big pleasure to me, now I know that I as look as a soul still 
                                    possibly as many years ago, yes, here we become more recently every now and 
                                    then, probably lives up to soon, my dear.

                                    Also Madleine thanked voluble and already exhausts and one fetched back them  
                                    again in the reality.

39                                                     INSIDE - FLAT OF THE CLAIRVOYANT MARIANN - MEET

                                                                                                 NARRATOR
                                   Bea kept an eye on RF very well and asked - without he paid attention - also other 
                                    women to see over now and again to the actor. And she acted well in it.

                                    RF bent forward at the moment when suddenly the voice of his mother floated 
                                    through the space and before his eyes everything turned. He fought with himself. 
                                    Finally, he rose and visited another, smaller space, as far as as possible away from 
                                    the though beguiling, but awfully really working voice of the magnificent woman 
                                    whom he still loved and would always love of course.

                                    Bea slowly followed him and saw how he stretched himself out on a narrow couch.

                                                                                                  BEA
                                                                     (nervously)
                                   Is it to you too magically with us, RF? The abbreviation has also become 
                                    naturalized in our circle, probably does not go differently, or?

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (after breath struggling)
                                   Would be connected to you if I got now some rest, would be this feasible, Bea?    
                                    Nevertheless, they permit that I call you Bea or do you pass on the addition 
                                    magician?

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (giving a laugh)
                                   Magician, thus: sounds fantastically, better than witch . What we pursue here, good 
                                    man, is called white magic, we abhor all other, so you have to fear from our side 
                                    nothing, we revere you here everybody, in the one or other way.

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (pricking up the ears, amused)
                                   Oh really? Nevertheless, I do not hope that I have stepped to a fan from the magic 
                                    circle in the past too near?

                                    Bea understood very well the allusion, said no, sat down on a chair, bent to him, 
                                    she absolutely wanted to help Madleine. If the most uncomplicated mediator was, 
                                    nevertheless, Madleine between the worlds.

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (gets tired)
                                   I wanted to close something the eyes, but please, I can do this and listen still to 
                                    you, magician Bea evaluates.

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (comfortably)
                                   Actually, I wanted to listen to you, master.

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (slightly annoyingly)
                                   On the epithet Master, guru, star or even genius: we leave this, nevertheless, fast 
                                    aside, one has too often shamed me already and has been surprised when I was 
                                    touched embarrassingly. Sir Laurence Olivier was and is too important to me as a 
                                    model and currently I am more distant than ever as to be known as he. It depresses 
                                    me anyhow if one wants to compare me to him.

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (appeasing)
                                   Forgive, RF, here we do not host so often actor who get by a happy chance the 
                                    chance to let pass revue former years really. What I want to say: why projects do 
                                    not begin quite differently?

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (curiously)
                                   Oh you think to yourselves around the normal arts? Magic has been up to now 
                                    always mysterious for me what should not mean that magic unnomal could be.

                                    He decided to take seriously this person and listened to her carefully.

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (enthusiastically)
                                   Of course we go in the cinema or theatre, we lead alongside a quite real life in Here 
                                    and Now, more worth.

                                    Bea could just still control herself not to say master again.

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (more quietly)
                                   Now, because RF, because thus some young men with exactly your face walk 
                                    around, you do not need there the help of another expert if you your current face 
                                    interferes? Since it must disturb you, but Madleine would hardly have come with 
                                    you.

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (mockingly)
                                   Why should my former face disturb me now? Madleine and her friends and I, 
                                    besides, also: we make thought to ourselves as the public could take up it if 
                                    becomes  known: RF is again 31. Does sound, nevertheless, mad, right? I am, to 
                                    tell the truth, a little bit helplessly. Yes, now I could also take over again other roles, 
                                    then, however, probably as Nobody and I still did not feel like about 2 days ago 
                                    renouncing my teacher activity and my hobbies.

                                    Were these 2 days or only one? Anxiously he noticed that his memory had 
                                    decreased for certain facts. Stress?

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (heading off)
                                   Why have you preferred now not to listen in to both voices any more? Because of 
                                    fear? I assure you: there everything shuts with right things, no double ground or in 
                                    such a way. The voice known to you has shocked you?

                                    RF nodded sorrowfully.

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (thoughtfully)
                                   You had up to now little time and opportunity to admit grief simply.

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (in a flat voice)
                                   This was fine it and if one is pushed constantly with the nose into it, it hurts 
                                    internally even more. To believe hardly Yes, right, but one can hurt me emotionally 
                                    and now on it I am not at all sharp.

                                                                                                  Bea
                                                                     (urgently)
                                   So openly, as you talk now with me, I accept, you will still want to do it with 
                                    Madleine or have already done it like I you know.

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (monosyllabic)
                                   Oh yes, subject one knows me. Use there with pleasure the example of 2 sides 
                                    of a medallion: where light is, is also shade and what other sayings are more. No, I 
                                    have injured Madleine during the last maybe 24 hours or a little bit more too much. 
                                    They and the others only wanted to help me, from wrong pride I have endangered 
                                    myself and have wasted time. If you left alone me now please something, Madleine 
                                    is sure soon ready with this thing.

                                    Bea did this and RF turned to the wall and tried to think of something else than to  
                                    extrasensory, briefly fell asleep.

                                                                                                  Dream sequence
    40                                                     INSIDE - INNER LIFE OF RF - MEET

                                    In the following dream he saw himself at the same time on the couch resting and, on 
                                    the other hand, in parallel with this couch the 2nd time on another imaginary couch. 
                                    To the other I earphones were put on by a person whom he did not recognise, just,  
                                    because she had no face. Where people have the face, was there a white mask. 
                                    However, being own I heard the tones, the music, the language, nevertheless, 2. I 
                                    should take up. It was a weird mess of different ancient clips of a platform which he 
                                    had never visited, he knew which pictures he found there from himself.
                                    He tried just to discover other clips, however, still, there he heard the very peculiar 
                                    music which sent him a gentle smile in the face. There nothing was a classical, rather 
                                    the sphere music which one could not hear thus without next. Slowly, however, the  
                                    beauty changed in the screaming.

41                                                         INSIDE - FLAT of the CLAIRVOYANT MARIANN - MEET

                                                                                                  RF
                                                                     (bringing up)
                                   Of course nothing is to be heard, does not suppose sometimes that now I begin to 
                                    lose the mind.

                                    He got up annoyingly, visited a bathroom, refreshed his face. In the mirror... Clear, 
                                    this was still that from another time, creepily he did not find it, but also not amusing.

42                                                         INSIDE - THE SAME FLAT: THE SPACE In which itself   
                                                                                             Madleine considers - MEET

                                                                                                  NARRATOR
                                   Madleine let itself send the second spot in the soul world. Not because she wanted 
                                    to have there fun, she knew about what she wanted to say the soul of the 
                                    selfmurderer. And this could not know the other soul certainly, or?"

                                    In the interworld, a grey area between soul world and the human world she also 
                                    found the soul of her friend. Sadly the ghost fluttered round them, because as such 
                                    called Madleine even that distraught soul.

                                                                                                  Soul of the selfmurderer
                                                                     (almost happily)
                                   If it is not too early for you, here Madleine, is too dull it, so go again.

                                                                                                  Madleine
                                                                     (reassuringly)
                                   Sweetness, how I have always called you or snail: why you still pursue him, it is by 
                                    no means a guilt for your misfortune.

                                                                                                  Soul of the "sweetness"
                                                                     (maliciously)
                                   He appears always himself here, here of course not because of me, anyhow he 
                                    gets lost, as if it was so interesting. Is also "exciting": grey, black, full flames and no 
                                    angel's bells.

                                                                                                  Madleine
                                                                     (seriously)
                                   I would talk with pleasure for hours to you, however, does not go. Maybe another 
                                    spot. Promise to me that you leave alone him in his dreams. And also conjures no 
                                    messages to some walls, I know that the stuff of you or your bad soul friends must 
                                    come. Meant, however, bad karma if you can still start what with it. A wonderful  
                                    soul which I have closed very much in my heart soon helps you here. I warn you: if 
                                    you cause to me or somebody, otherwise, trouble, one could even curse you and 
                                    you would never receive the chance of the rebirth!

 

 

 

 

 

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